i talked to her last night. even if it was just for a little while it was nice. im glad shes doing well. i have to go to a doctor or something cuz im getting really depressed and its scaring me and my family. family life is shitty. i havent really been home at all lately. last night was an early night cuz i could barley swallow i needed to drink something (ice cold water) to sooth it. today i went to bretts for awhile and watched him and rusty play need for speed and sing about pepper mayo which is pretty much and everyday thing. friday im going to a party at the grants so that should be fun. other than that ive been playing my guitar every single day for a long time. i think i might just start a solo project im good enough for it i think. tonight im not sure what im doing i think i might go to new york not the city but for a nice drive.